It’s the people who you surround yourself with that makes high school seem like it’s the worse place in the world during those 4 years of your life. It’s hard to enjoy this 4 year experience when the majority of the people at my school are so fake and have no manners whatsoever. It’s hard to even share something with anyone, because 99% of the time, that tiny little secret will spread, your words get twisted, and you look like the bad guy. I know I should be trying to stay positive about school and everything, but it’s not easy to look forward to spending 6 hours in a place where everyone only knows how to talk shit about everyone else. Fake friends, rumors, lies, no manners and no courtesy. The white people at my school thinks Asians are some sort of cult, and Asians think white people are bitches. Seriously? None of this mattered in middle school, but suddenly race does matter, and you get judged if you’re an Asian hanging out with a group of white people. “That Asian hoe.” “That white bitch thinking she can sit at our table.” What the hell is wrong with everyone at my school? I really can’t wait to graduate and maybe in college, people will learn to mature a little.
“How the hell are you going to be successful one day when you’re afraid of things like GRASSHOPPERS? LOL.” Um. Excuse me. I didn’t realize that ophthalmology involved working with grasshoppers, or even being around them all that frequently. To laugh and ridicule me for wanting to become a doctor when I have fears of grasshoppers is ridiculous, considering how much smarter and more intelligent I am than you. Between the two of us, who gets the straight A’s? Me. Who aces the tests and quizzes? Me. Who’s actually determined to do well in school and be successful in life? Me. All you know how to do is talk shit about other people, and you have the nerve to laugh at me and tell me I won’t go anywhere in life. Take a look at yourself. You get bad grades. You don’t take school seriously. You fail most of your quizzes and tests, and you are telling ME that I won’t be successful in life? Think again, dumb bitch. Who’ll see who’s laughing at who when I’m a successful doctor and you’re still stuck.
What I mean is real conversations, that last for hours and hours that is ongoing until you both fall asleep. Usually, one person gets sleepy before the other and starts talking non-sense. hahaha, then I just love making fun of the other person. Yeah, I just love them. You talk about your day, what stressed you out, or just cute people you saw today. It just feels good to have a legit conversation with someone, especially if its with someone you really care about.
It’s a satisfying feeling when I realize that I’m changing, and that this change is for the better. I’m learning to stand up for myself, something I was hardly able to do in the past. I’m learning to love and cherish myself again, as for the past several months I’ve forgotten that I, too, am…
Am I that old friend? ^-^
Why are you on my tumblr LOL
It’s a satisfying feeling when I realize that I’m changing, and that this change is for the better. I’m learning to stand up for myself, something I was hardly able to do in the past. I’m learning to love and cherish myself again, as for the past several months I’ve forgotten that I, too, am special. I’ve neglected myself, but that is changing, as I realize that I should appreciate myself for all the flaws that I have. I’m learning to forgive, because an old friend taught me that if I never forgive, I will never truly be happy because grudges carry burdens and those burdens will only weigh me down. Forgiveness is a good feeling, and it is the first step towards a happier life with a more positive outlook.